LIL INTERNET‘s latest video, I Through Proxy, splices together found YouTube clips of people self-documenting their struggles with depression.
The darkly realistic portrait is now on exhibition at the Thomas Young Studio in South Boston.
Tell me about the title.
It is an exploration of dissociation. Once people start projecting their concept of “I” as existing primarily in the online world, the direct experience of real life starts to drift away. They are experiencing what should be a direct experience through the video they make of themselves “acting” their direct experience, and processing it without this “proxy” becomes difficult.
Do you think they are hoping to be found?
There is an exhibitionist element to it, and of course a need for recognition, a need to feel “known.”
These are extremely personal videos about extremely personal feelings, and they are just put out there for anyone to see.
The video makes the feelings real.
Where do you think this obsession with documentation comes from?
There’s been a big shift away from privacy. Your social worth is quantified by friends and views. In the past, your world was only as big as where you lived and who you encountered. Your worth was really based on your contributions to your immediate environment.
But now, you are connected to the world, and, in a way, competing with the world. I think we are totally fucking these kids up.
THOMAS YOUNG STUDIO
469 WEST BROADWAY